sweater dresses in bright colors with boots and scarves. that's my kick right now. i'm so predictable!
if only i could be more like blair...sure there are those predictable yet adorable headbands but for the most part her style is more spontaneous than mine. i fall in ruts.
plus chuck bass is, like, the ULTIMATE accessory.
thanksgiving for single people.relax, it was gourmet. and it was good but lonely. dessert was pumpkin cheesecake and half a can of whipped cream. 
i watched CQ again. i love dragonfly.
but i love paul more.
i watched CQ again. i love dragonfly.but i love paul more.i finished the other half of the can of whipped cream while watching law & order reruns. the trick is to keep the can with you and spray each layer of ice cream as you devour it. that's the only way to hibernate.
see? sweater dresses with scarves and boots. this was last wednesday. lots of red and orange lately, too.
see? sweater dresses with scarves and boots. this was last wednesday. lots of red and orange lately, too.i joined an online support group for people with bpd. is it strange that i find comfort in reading the rants of people with the same crazy as me? it helps. truth is i need to get back on my meds. insurance kicks in next month. hopefully they'll cover it. i can barely leave the house anymore. i met up with a couple friends last week for dinners but i can only handle the one-on-one social things right now. group gatherings scare the crap outta me. i'm such a psycho.
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you are NOT psycho. you take that back RIGHT NOW!
very glad your insurance starts up soon. did you get a new job? i am worried that i will go through my entire retirement account just paying for therapy.
yeah bauhaus.
i love the bauhaus version but i was on a marc bolan kick yesterday. t rex makes me salivate. uncontrollably.
still at the same job but i signed up for the insurance. my retirement is gone from basic living expenses. isn't that sick? i really can't afford insurance but it's better than these umpteen thousand dollar hospital bills i'm being hounded with. plus i really really want to get back on meds.
i'm not "psycho" per se but i don't do well during the holidays. or anytime lately, for that matter. i have moments of clarity and bright spots but i'm so isolated and afraid of getting out in the world. i need to be around people but i just don't know how. it's easier to hide.
You are not alone! My holiday depression showed up - right on time! - monday. yay. I think you're doing better than you think. You're dressed beautifully and thoughtful enough to take steps to help yourself. I know it's a leap, but you should be proud.
I hope you feel better soon, Susie.
And I think you have far more style and flair than Blair could ever hope to have.
So glad to see you posting again.
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