this was my first time to motor and sadly it was "burlesque" night. a tragic team shimmied, showcasing their lack of rhythm and taste as a toneless white rapper in an oversized purple jacket slaughtered the english language. at least the bar was cute. alyson and i adored the chicken wire that seperated the bar from the stage. (note: you can still toss peanuts through chicken wire if necessary) good thing we hadn't gone down for the show. i felt bad for the ten or so people who did. it seemed that they were the pussywhipped boyfriends of the "performers" so i don't have too much sympathy.
it helped so much to be with alyson. she has helped me a great deal with my mental illness. bpb sucks sometimes. look at how many pills i have to take daily and i have no insurance to help pay for this. i'd be rich if i didn't have to spend $300+ a month on pills. she lent me a great book on borderline personality disorder and is going to give me some contacts for a program at UW. i would love to get some help with this.
yawn... so tired. must sleep now. kisses!
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I know very little about bpb. But mental illness in general sucks. And I guarantee you that every single human being walking the earth has some form of it. Lots are undiagnosed, whether it's due to most people not realizing illness, or lack of money or interest in pursuing help for it.
:( 300.00 is a hell of a lot of coin, doll. Part of my problem is that I do not have a therapist nor a doctor, so I do not have access to meds. I was taking Effexor, and it did help me. Now I'm just a pack of nerves, depression, and hate all balled up into flesh.
I do not self-medicate, b/c that would be very counter-productive... But then again, how productive can I possibly be walking around with this eternal thunder cloud. Sometimes I get so mad I just want to run off a cliff.
Luckily you and I have people that know us, love us, and count on us to be around.
Girl, just for you, there anything you want from me b4 I close? 60% off b/c I love thee!
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